You can decide the type of future you want.
The universe hasn’t destroyed us yet. AKA the Sun.
Most people want you to become successful.
You get everyday to water your seed in life.
So much of your life can be changed at the drop of a hat. Just the fact that you're living, will never compare to you being in Heaven. Be grateful that you can spend everyday looking to change your environment and situations. The biggest regret most people will have is not living the life they really want.
One suggestion, quit clock watching and start doing. Nothing compares to getting shit done, so just start. Also, stop looking for perfection and just ride the wave of life.